The World is Big, but I Turn it Around

"No change of heart, a change in me"

Thu, 01 Jan 2009 01:31:07 GMT

Thanks to Laura-

My Livejournal year

JAN- "WHO SAID THAT EVERY WISH WOULD BE HEARD AND ANSWERED WHEN WISHED ON THE MORNING STAR"
So I haven't written anything in livejournal for a month...that is because I was home, and my life at home seems even more boring than my life at school...and the only real interesting times are when I am with all of you guys, and therefore have no need to write about it... I have been waiting to go back to school for a while, not because I am excited or really wanting to actually, I just sort of want to feel productive again.

FEB- "JUST A SPOONFUL OF SUGAR MAKES THE MEDICINE GO DOWN"
So, I am sick. There seems to be an epidemic of the flu that is going around campus.

MARCH- "WHEN AT NIGHT I GO TO SLEEP, FOURTEEN ANGELS WATCH TO KEEP"
So...since I am procrastinating already...what Jessica has learned about Shakespeare troupe:

APRIL-"HOME, HOME ON THE RANGE WHERE THE DEER AND THE ANTELOPE PLAY"
So....I am 150.

MAY- "ITS MAY, ITS MAY, THE LUSTY MONTH OF MAY"
This week has been crazy....I mean seriously crazy.

JUNE- "LOTS OF CHOCOLATE FOR ME TO EAT...LOTS OF COAL MAKIN' LOTS OF 'EAT"
After 4 weeks of not updating Jessica has to say....nothing! Or that she hates her job that she has only gotten 5 hours of work this week because they are evil and keep calling her to tell her not to come in....oh isn't this lovely.

JULY- NONE (see august)

AUG- 'OH THOSE SUMMER NIGHTS"
.D.'s reflection of this summer (summer '08)
Yes I have not written in about two months....and this is because my summer has to be the most uneventful time ever

SEPT- "BEAUTY SCHOOL DROPOUT, HANGIN' AROUND THE CORNER STORE"
For me, I ain't dropping out of anything....at least not yet. One week of classes down.

OCT- "A HAPPY WORKING SONG."
I am just waiting for it to be thursday evening, when I fly home and have a completely wonderful break from school.

NOV- "I GET NO KICK FROM CHAMPAGNE, MERE ALCOHOL DOESN'T THRILL ME AT ALL"
My life absolutely never seems to slow down....coming back from fall break (what two weeks ago now??) I really knew I was sort of going to be working my ass off every second

DEC- "WHEN YOU COME HOME TO ME, I'LL WEAR A SWEETER SMILE, AND HOPE THAT FOR A WHILE YOU'LL STAY."
as much as I hate thanksgiving food, I do love thanksgiving break.

Summary of my year- Lots of stuff happened…but I guess nothing really important enough to discuss about on livejournal. I had a good year…and am now on to declaring my major and finishing my sophomore year. While the 2nd semester of freshman year was hard for me…I think these past few months this school year have been the best! I know that 2009 will be great…except that makes only 2 years til we graduate?? I shouldn’t think that far ahead.

"Mysterious as the dark side of the moon"

Fri, 12 Sep 2008 02:49:05 GMT

My mouth is numb, my ankle hurts, and I might not be registered for any of the classes I am taking....but other than that, life's good. I have to write out the budget for SPT, because it is due tomorrow, which is definitely fine with me. I don't actually have to do much work in that...and have to write a report on the history of Turkey, not with a partner anymore b/c she dropped the class...and I realized this class is all seniors besides me...which is a little scary. But then I realized how awesome being a linguistics major will be....and I got a ride home from this senior who already has a first draft of her thesis, ya, because she wrote a novel!!! A ling major....that's her thesis, pretty cool. I wish I was that talented to have a 325 page novel written before graduating college....I wish I was talented enough to even write anything that someone would want to read....the people at this school still seem to make my jaw drop. Everyone is so modest....and yet they have already saved the world. I have so big shoes to fill....

Speaking of big shoes, everyone should take a lovely trip to Bryn Mawr, PA November 6,7,8 for Macbeth (I get to say it cause I am in it!!) to see me in all my manliness as........BANQUO!!! I am not a little boy??!?! I am playing a man?!?!? We'll see how this turns out. Anyone have someone for me to talk to about being a man, cause we're kinda short at this school....but I am excited. I get to be a ghost!!!

"I got plenty of nothin and nothin's plenty for me"

Thu, 26 Jun 2008 00:06:23 GMT

I just had the greatest day yesterday. I took a backstage tour of the lyric opera...and I got to see all the places where they work on the costumes, make wigs, store everything, rehearse, and even went on stage...It was so great. And perhaps they are going to give me an internship next year, even though they don't have any actual internship program. I guess it does pay to have my mom talk about me to all of her tennis friends (one of her friends is the head of the rehearsal dept. at the lyric). It is amazing, and looks like hard work, but also a lot of fun...putting on 8 shows virtually at the same time. It would be so great to work there.

"I'm here cause I'm serious...oh ya, you look real serious"

Mon, 31 Mar 2008 00:51:38 GMT

So...productive procrastination led me to this website...http://www.gray-area.org/Research/Ambig/#HEAD. ( I don't actually know how to do a hyperlink, so I guess just copy and paste if you want to see it. which is so funny...especially for those who are a fan of linguistics...or how stupid our language is...but here is some lovely poem that I enjoyed:

Spell Checker

Eye halve a spelling chequer
It came with my pea sea
It plainly marques for my revue
Miss steaks eye kin knot sea.

Eye strike a key and type a word
And weight four it two say
Weather eye am wrong oar write
It shows me strait a weigh.

As swoon as a mist ache is maid
It nose bee fore two long
And eye can put the error rite
Its rare lea ever wrong.

Eye have run this poem threw it
I am shore your pleased two no
Its letter perfect awl the weigh
My chequer tolled me sew.

Its a pretty awesome website....

" In 1902 father built a house on the crest of the broad view avenue ridge..."

Thu, 14 Feb 2008 05:15:38 GMT

I have gone from being "the little girl" or "TLG" as I like to call it, to "TLB" (The Little Boy). I love my part.....I think because it is an excuse for me to be a fool of myself because I am that childish....because in rehearsal, I act like I am ten....but its so much fun, and people seem to think I am funny. I haven't been feeling well lately...and rehearsal has actually helped me a lot, which is very nice....its so funny, how one of the most depressing plays ever written actually makes me feel happier...but anyways, I must start my work. I give myself too much time to think.

"I thought home was all I'd ever want, my attic all I'd ever need"

Tue, 27 Nov 2007 04:48:12 GMT

my day consisted of:

waking up at 3:45am to get to the airport by 4:45 am for a 6:00am flight to Philly. I was practically crying because of all the work I have to do this week, including tech week for Romeo and Juliet.

7:15 am- finally taking off, after over an hour sitting on the plane, doing homework...I decided to take a nap when we finally took off

10:00am- reached philly, of course not in time for french, so decided to take the train back instead of cab, which would cost soooo much. Got on train for 30th st station to transfer to R5 to Bryn Mawr.

10:30 am- get to 30th st station and find that the next r5 is not coming until...11:43am....over an hour later....so I wait and do homework

12:10 pm- gte back to Bryn Mawr, finally, I should have been back by 10...then I had to run to lunch with sophia.

1:00pm- Cities class...we brainstormed the perfect city and all its parts, quite dull...debated about asking for extension for paper, but chickened out.

3:00pm- called YMCA to hopefully get information...finally talked to Gilbert, who had just the information we needed, but also needed to go visit sooo....

3:40pm- finally got on the late train to center city, with a truckload of high schoolers who cannot stay in a single seat for more than 2 seconds, its crazy how immature they are. One good thing about them is that the conductor didn't make us show our tickets, b/c he thought we were one of them, so we didn't have to pay!

4:45pm- found Christian St. YMCA...we had been there before, but somehow we took the most random route and got lost...and took a way long time to get there....we talked with Gilbert for an hour and then took pictures on our tour with Sara...very, very productive, I was quite proud of myself and my questions and organization.

6:30pm- got back to Bryn Mawr....hehe....I had rehearsal at 6pm....ooops...I had called Chaya, got the stagemanagers phone number and called and said that I was going to be late, so I didn't feel too bad...except that I missed tech rehearsal on sunday too...oh well

7:00pm- went to rehearsal, they were only on act 1, scene ii, so I barely missed anything, but did realize that the show opens on thursday, not friday...well I guess that is one less day of rehearsal, but does not really bother me any, except that I have 2 papers due on Friday, and one on thursday...definetly have to get an extension on one of them....

10:30pm- so happy because rehearsal didn't last until 11:30pm which it supposedly did yesterday...it was nice...and cool to be in the room we are performing in. Supposedly I have an amazing costume....I want to see it!

Now- yes, I should be sleeping, or doing homework...but I felt that all needed to know my day of chaos...which also included me wanting to rip out my eardrums on an airplane with no one to comfort me, and acting through a mind-splitting headache that has not entirely worn off, even though I took medicine. But the first day back is over...and I am already back at home. Also weird...when I talked to my family, they said, "so you made it home safely" which seems strange to me. I do call Bryn Mawr home...but I feel like they would not want it to be that....it was very nice to here that though. I hope everyone had a good day....I'll see you in about a month!

" Yo ho, yo ho a pirates life for me"

Fri, 16 Nov 2007 05:27:29 GMT

Funny story...I was working on my costume design project, that was actually due today, but I didn't turn it in because it took me forever to find research on creole fashion...but anyway I was searching on google images for "1930s poor" and came up with pictures of: Orlando Bloom in Pirates of the Caribbean, a sailing ship, a map of a township in some other country, a steamer ship, a few random cartoons and No photos of poor people at all...I have been beginning to find that google is not as useful as it once was.....but I don't know what else to use. I am still working on this project, but I have all my research...and I am jsut typing everything up...but I went and saw Doctor Faustus Lights the Lights tonight...it was sooo strange and wasn't as hard to understand as I thought it would be, but it still didn't make any sense. It was amazing though. They built a small stage in the middle of the theatre, and performed everywhere, even outside in the windows on the roof! We were given mirrors so during one scene we could see all this stuff that was happening in the balcony behind our heads...it was so fascinating. It makes me really want to be a set/costume designer or something....and the makeup/costumes sort of reminded me of the Cabinet of Dr. Caligari...but no matter what anyone else says Caligari makes so much more sense than Faustus....but it was a good night.

"And everything was Ragtime..."

Fri, 09 Nov 2007 01:54:51 GMT

all I have to say is:

E.L. Doctorow is amazing!

"Beauty school drop out, hangin around the corner store, beauty school drop out, its about time you

Wed, 07 Nov 2007 04:09:53 GMT

Well I have had the most random songs stuck in my head today, everything from Grease to Gloria...you know that Christmas song that we sang in choir a few years ago...can you believe that was actually years ago??

This past weekend was parents weekend, which was very nice. My parents are a lot of fun when I don't see them every day...we went to visit my grandma and saw my uncle and his new wife (I think they have actually been married for a few years now, but she will never be my aunt, because I really like my ex-aunt too much, especially in comparison to my uncle, who I found hates her with a passion, one where he wishes she were dead, which is crazy) My uncle is also really mean to my grandma...its somewhat a joke, but its really awkward for me to know that he makes fun of her and everything, but she still has to rely on him. But other than that it was good. I got the game CLue DVD...which is awesome and fun....and I need to find people to play with...

This week so far has been fine...I only worked for less than 1 hour...yay Jessica never making money...there was just nothing to do. But at least we get paid while we eat dinner, so I got almost 2 hours of pay...today was nice, since my CSEM was cancelled...and I spent 4 hours in the library looking up costumes of the Baroque era and the 1930s...it took soo long to find books because the system is soo messed up with letters and numbers and the folio/non folio stuff...and all the good books were at SWAT.

I signed up for my classes for next semester and they are as follows:

Intermediate French
Experimental Psychology
Survey of Modern Architecture
Introductory Piano
Mask and Puppet Design and Performance
and Intro Ling at Swarthmore....

I know that I cannot take this many classes, so I have to drop one, but I will see how the classes go...if I had this schedule I'd have 4 classes on Monday...2 on Tuesday....3 on Wednesday...1 on thursday...and 2 on friday....i could handle that, right?? Ha ha...introductory piano is only 1/2 a credit so that would be fine...I don't want to drop the Mask and puppet class because it sounds like sooo much fun!! Actually I know nothing about it...but it is only once a week... Well I will just wait and see if I get into all of my classes that I want!

"This is Halloween, this is Halloween, Halloween, Halloween."

Sun, 28 Oct 2007 14:54:54 GMT

So...halloween at Bryn Mawr is supposed to be the best party of the year. I think that statement is true for most people, those who are completely wasted. Me, on the other hand, did not have anything to drink...and only had an okay/not great time. I made this whole costume...and I think I looked the prettiest I ever looked, ever (even prettier than prom). But guys don't like pretty....or beautiful, they like hot and sexy. I was seriously the only girl wearing a dress that went over the knee (it was floor length). The dance at Rhoads would have been better if people stopped leaving Sophia and me. It was really sad that she was the only person that I knew that was there. After a little more than an hour we left, knowing that we wouldn't get back in because of the long line. I didn't even want to know what was happening in Radnor....but even Rhoads wasn't exactly clean fun. We went back to the room...well first I saw Nora (from ETHS) who was pretty drunk and she introduced herself to me and kept shaking my hand...drunk people are hilarious...except my roommate. I am sooo glad that we are in a quad because I don't know what I would do if I had to deal with her myself. As it is now, I really don't have to deal with her at all when she is drunk...and when I say drunk....I mean really drunk. She has no tolerance for alcohol...she started drinking at 4 pm....in less than a half an hour she was stumbling around...and she kept drinking. Everyone tries to take care of her and she gets mad...but luckily I don't think she did anything too stupid last night. My other roommate got her nose pierced...it looks goodish...it will look better with a smaller nosering....at 3 am she comes in an says "we go to a gay school you guys." We had a discussion about going to Bryn Mawr and whether it was a good idea or not. My opinion was this: I love bryn mawr so much...everything academic about it is perfect. On the other hand...I will never have any sort of relationship with a guy if I continue to do what I am doing...staying at Bryn Mawr. I am not saying that I should transfer...but I am saying that I need to get myself off this campus once and a while. I need friends from other schools who have friends that are guys....The estrogen everywhere is nice in the classroom....but I don't think I can stand it too much longer being everywhere else. There were hot guys (more of them were just cute) at the Halloween party...but of course those wouldn't be the ones that I would want a relationship with.....but it was nice to have boys around....there's a different dynamic....you can see that I am slowly going mad!

"spread sunshine all over the place. Just put on a happy face."

Thu, 25 Oct 2007 20:37:00 GMT

My night last night and morning today was exactly like the weather...gloomy. I thought I had lost my keys, which I needed to a) get into my dorm b) get food from any of the dining halls c) get into the costume shop, where I needed to work on my project. I had searched everywhere and no one said that they had any idea where they were. Today in costume design we went to the extraordinarily cheap fabric store (it was also a store for everything else cheap too, like a giant run down tjmaxx)and I got fabric for my androgynous peacock costume. Oh course the fabric I bought was like the most expensive in the store, $10 a yard, but I only bought one yard of it and it is perfect for the project. I came home after dying the trim I got from a mint green to a greyish blues (not the best, but better than mint) about to cry since I still didn't have my keys. then I looked in the top drawer of my desk....and of course they were there. YAY!! So now I am very happy. I got my sewing machine in the mail! One problem is that somehow the speed control lever broke. I bought some superglue and glued it on, but I may need to take it back after I get the project done. I also superglued my e key on my keyboard so it doesn't look so janky. It still doesn't work so well though. Only about three quarters of the time. Oh well. It is still raining outside, but I am happy. CSEM was amazing today, we really couldn't keep focus...and still got done with everything and got to leave early!

"Its time to get serious...its time to get serious"

Sat, 20 Oct 2007 20:46:28 GMT

So....Jessica the stupid girl didn't do any of her homework and has to do it all today, since she is leaving tomorrow back to school. Tonight will be fun, since my family and I are going to see Forbidden Broadway! And I have been watching Legally Blonde the musical sooo much (it was on MTV and I recorded it) its sooo entertaining, and makes me feel high when I watch it....yes theatre is a drug to me, even it is taped. I kind of have to pack too.

Now you can all laugh at me again....Micah called.......and we talked for a while. He was flirting as always, telling me about how I should be Aphrodite for Halloween and other stuff. And then asked if I wanted to go to lunch...of course me, the stupidest girl in the world, said yes, he told me he'd call me....and then he didn't...wow....did I see that coming or what? NO...because I am stupid. Why can't I tell him to just stop calling me and making plans...because he's the one who asks me, not the other way around. Whatever.......Jessica is going back to her women's college tomorrow and everything will be back to normal... And Jessica can forget about boys.

"Give 'em the old Razzle Dazzle, Razzle Dazzle 'em"

Wed, 26 Sep 2007 01:30:28 GMT

So...jessica has one paper due on thursday and another one due on friday and is instead of actually doing work, decides to reflect on her life thus far at college....okay not really. But I just got back from my fourth hour of french....I wish every french class was like that. Il y a quelqu'un qui a un verre dans le nez....or Il etait bourre...in other words...look there's a drunk! We were just learning expressions and hand gestures...we didn't actually see a drunk. Earlier I had fencing...which is so much fun...except we don't yet get to play with swords...darn...but the coach is pretty hilarious...and I will at some point be able to spin the little disk on my finger...I just can't get it started....oh well. And then earlier I was at my CSEM, the best class ever. The professor is definetly even better than I expected....he makes fun of the one girl who tries to make everything so intellectual (well not really, he actually makes fun of everybody) Its very relaxing. My costume design class was pretty good...turning in the project was a relief, but then I always have to hear all the bad stuff I did...but suprisingly no one, but the professor had anything bad to say....so I can that a triumph on my part, no matter what the grade is. So today is over...but tomorrow is another story. I have 2 classes, then wellness...then rehearsal...which is fun, but again I am never there so everyone else is friends and so somewhat awkward for shy little Jessica who has never done this shakespeare stuff...ever. But the story is great...Romeo is a girl (played by a girl (all characters are played by girls and portrayed as a girl) and let's see what else....the nurse has a crush on Tybalt and Paris...Mercutio and Benvolio are lovers, and Tybalt was Benvolio's ex, and is now a complete homophobe...and there's more, but I can't remember....everything in the play is soo sexual...which I definetly didn't realize reading it freshman year...but then again I am still somewhat naive...and I do think everyone is acting extremely sexual on and offstage...but I guess this is what it is like at a women's college....I miss boys....but only sometime...but that was really funny Beth....the GYN discussion.

Edit: Okay I need to learn how to draw....when will I get the book that will teach me.....stupid Amazon.com....but I did well on the project.

"See us winter walking after a storm, its chill in the wind but its warm in your arms"

Wed, 12 Sep 2007 13:34:33 GMT

I must say that college life is amazing...I finished my costume design project and my CSEM paper from hell (the rough draft for supposedly the hardest reading we do for the whole semester) turned them both in and found A) everyone ended up liking my costume design project, and B) I actually got the definitions of Culture from the Raymond Williams readings correct, even though my paper is not really that good, but hey, its only a rough draft. Then I came back to my room, bought myself a new timbuk2 bag (my laptop case broke, and hey, they were on sale) and then relaxed and worked on some drawings for my next costume design project, I am determined to at some point learn to make a person that is fully proportioned...its not working out so well, but I definitely am making a "design wall" on the wall over my bed, right next to the peter pan picture. Then at 10 at night my roommates and I walked to WaWa, where we bought a hell of a lot of junk food (and some soup, and milk, and I bought gum and mints, and the iced mint mocha that I always get) and we met some police officers there. They were hanging out by the coffee machines, but luckily not the donuts. They were asking us if we were high, and had the munchies, which was pretty hilarious, since Ellen (a person from my customs group who came with) had "pot head" written on her arm...they were pretty cool, and said that this was the safest Wawa now that they were there. And then we walked back, talking about all the awesome cops we have encountered (I really had no story for that one)....but it was still awesome....And it was amazing seeing everyone yesterday with their umbrellas and rain boots walking to classes, it just made me smile, which Yuliya noticed and laughed at me...its so much like England here....Oh and in my CSEM we were talking about language and how it is associated with class and my professor brings up how in cockney rhyming slang they call money bread, b/c money rhymes with honey and you put honey on bread. He started to say that he didn't know anymore, and so I popped in by saying they call beer a Britney, because Britney Spears rhymes with Beer...this was fairly relevant since we had earlier been talking about how bad Britney Spears was at the VMAs...so it was perfect and made everyone laugh...I really need to take a linguistics class next semester....well that's all for now. But I really want to talk on the phone with you all, but since I seem to always call in the worst times (like during class) can you guys tell me good times on which days that we can chat...thanks

"How do you run with a shell on your back..."

Sat, 01 Sep 2007 13:42:05 GMT

Its the weirdest thing to be so close to people that I have only met a few days ago. Few people would ever understand the bond between my customs group, and the bond women at Bryn Mawr feel with each other in general. Its been pretty emotional these past few days, not because of being homesick, or not fitting in, but learning about everyone's lives and revealing some intense feelings and emotions that I never knew existed. Its pretty crazy, and pretty draining, but it has all been worth it, even though I really don't get much sleep. But everythings really good....and I am excited to start classes... but that's really all I can say about life...its incredibly surreal.

"Oh hallowed halls and vine-draped walls, the proudliest sight there is"

Thu, 30 Aug 2007 15:45:25 GMT

I am officially in college, which is very exciting for me. And amazingly I wasn't that nervous when I arrived at all. The first day was pretty chaotic with all of the moving in and everything, but I am very excited about where I am staying since the rooms are quite nice and the bathroom is right across the hall, and the dorm is centrally located to pretty much everything. My roommates are all soo nice. Three of us are big theatre people, which is so cool, but definetly leaves one person out, but I think she is pretty fine with it. I am officially working for the Bryn Mawr catering company for my work study, which is very exciting, since I won't have to clean up for all of the students and I sort of know some things about it already. I jsut have to remember to bring over a voided check to the campus center at some point today so that my direct deposit thing actually works out. I may have missed it however, when taking the french placement test. That was pretty much a nightmare. i was actually pretty fine on the listening, except for the few times I spaced out or didn't understand the directions, which sucked because they only read everything once. The reading was okay for some parts, but me and about everyone else didn't finish. I skipped almost whole sections, like four or five questions a piece, but whatever. Then we had to split up and I of course was with the 6 years of french and over. I think both groups took the same test, but either way, it was terrible. I couldn't remember anything, the translation was terrible, who knows the verb "to solve" I sure don't and it is really hard to try and make something up to fit "to solve a crime" if you don't know to solve.... but I think I may jsut start a new language, and therefore be on the same level as everyone else, knowing nothing!
We picked our class song, parody song and songmistress last night, which would take way to long to explain... but all I have to say is "Ain't No Mountain High Enough" "This is why I'm Hot" and the song mistress is a girl who really can't sing at all...which should be interesting...but ya that has been my life so far at Bryn Mawr, more to come.

"Good-bye my love, God bless you, and I suppose, Bless America too."

Wed, 22 Aug 2007 02:35:41 GMT

Its really weird to think that I will never really live in Evanston again. Tonight is my last night in my bed, the one I have slept in since I can remember, except for the crib. My room is my favorite place in the world, and though I will be going back once and a while, it will never truly be my room again....
I am not yet really nervous about college, I still have a week, but I know that once I have to go, I will not be able to eat a thing...that's what happened when I went to Cherubs...Although I am much more ready now for college than I was last year, so maybe I am not so nervous. This was a great year, an awesome summer and next year should be just as great, or hopefully even better. Saying good-bye to childhood does kinda suck, but everyone else has to do it, so I can just as well. I think that is what will get me through all the work at college too. Other people have survived it, and therefore, why can't I.
I will get to start over in this new place, and I am sooo excited. My entire life I have been the shy quiet girl who's nice but everyone thinks that she hates them at some point. This summer I have realized that people don't have to know me as that....I had been living like that for quite some time because it is what people expected, what others were used to. But now I can be myself, who I truly am now, which will hopefully relieve myself from the shy title completely....not-the-most-talkitive would be more accurate....but then again, I don't have to decide who I am going to be...I am just going to see what its like.....oh and a got a new cell phone!!

Love you all...call me/text me (because I can get text messages now) because I will probably be without a computer until I get to school...the 29th. Have a great rest of summer/time at college.

"there is no team, like the best team, which is our team, right here"

Tue, 07 Aug 2007 23:52:54 GMT

Well only three more days of camp!!! I have been waiting to utter those words, pretty much since the first day of orientation....It should be a lot of fun (haha, really just hard work) for the next two days (show days) and then friday will be soooo sad, since its the end of camp. But I am sort of thinking I will do this job next year, unless something better comes up...which probably won't happen, so I will see practically all the kids next year. One of them (who might I add is not in my group) has told me that she needs me to be her counselor next year....sometimes I love the kids....
I spent the morning today making squirrel tails, they don't look so bad, but I was supposed to safety pin them shut but came up with the ingenious plan of stapling them instead. I am most definetly I resourceful costumer :) But we actually got through the show!!! I'm not saying it is even close to being ready, or good in the slightest, but whatever WE GOT THROUGH IT!!!!
And it was our last day of swimming classes....and I am a little disappointed, though yes, I was definetly pissed about having to swim every day before camp started. Now Micah really never has to talk to me again. There is no obligation for him. He can just not call me and he will never see me again.... Okay I am just a little mad about him not calling me yesterday, but whatever. the first thing he says when I get into the pool is, "hey sam (a camper) tell Jessica that I am going to beat her in chess". So therefore he is planning another competition between us, yet will it ever happen....no!!! Well besides the fact that he will most surely lose, it probably will never happen ever! I just have a feeling....maybe I am just cynical.....yes I am. But he also said he wanted to see Ratatouille, which seems strange for him, but maybe another hint??!! I really hate hot guys....I really do.

"Good Morning Dumbledore, every night is an open door"

Wed, 25 Jul 2007 23:18:10 GMT

Well this has been the longest week at work ever!!! And guess what, its not even close to being over yet. Tomorrow I have to spend over 24 hours at the JCC for the overnighter after a full day of fun at MSI...the MSI will be fun... there was little sarcasm there, but the rest of the night and the entire day of camp afterwards is going to be HELL!! All of the other counselors agree with me, and so we will be spending tomorrow night baking cakes in the JCC kitchen.

After a long lecture yesterday, which ended up going past camp time...where the kids learned about respecting each other, today was not really any better. THis one girl I am so close to strangling... and I had to have a whole discussion with the group...but that is all in the past b/c I was knighted...............counselor of the week!! Okay so not really knighted but whatever. Now I have another camp shirt to wear. Its orange, but guess what?? I feel special. THe instructors had nice things to say about me!! My group did redeem themselves by creating this song, to the tune of Good Morning Baltimore.

OW, OW, OW
Woke up today
feeling the pain I always do
OW OW OW
Scar's hurting from something
that I can't see
What's wrong with me

I pull out my wand
tell Hermione and Ron
I got to do this all on my own
OW OW OW
Been seven years
and look at how much I have grown

Good Morning Dumbledore
Every night is an open door
Every day is a quidditch match
Every sound is a curse or Hex
Good Morning Dumbledore
and today when I fight Voldemort
the World's gonna wake up and see
Dumbledore, and Me

SO ya that's all I gotta say, except does any one know any obscure sporta that I might actually be good at? Just wondering..

"525600 minutes, 525000 moments so dear"

Sat, 07 Jul 2007 18:21:37 GMT

How do you measure the number of times the little kids sing this song?!!?! But besides wanting to kill Rent, work has been going swimmingly....and the show is in less than a week. Actually it is on Thursday, and though I am nervous I suprisingly don't care, since the show doesn't have really anything to do with me in the slightest, except for the fact that I helped find most of the costumes. THe director told me that I was an "angel" and knew exactly what I was doing, which made me so happy since I want to be a costume designer. I spent most of rehearsal yesterday finding more costumes (the one for James is sooo perfect) and putting legs on the centipede's costume, which was hard work, since some of the kids were helping and kept asking "Am I doing this right? What about this! I did it right!! Yes, you want to help make a chain of gold safety pins?" But yes that is another story. But yes I do like my job, but of course all of the kids are convinced that I am really fourteen, and one girl has decided that I am her sister and wants me to get rid of our pretend brothers with her.... And the other counselors don't seem to like the job as much as I do, which is pretty sad...oh well, who cares about them. I am just not really excited about the second session, since some of my kids are leaving and others are coming, and my group will probably be moving around a bit, because the boys in my group are having a problem, which is so funny since everyone expects girls to be the ones to have cat fights and hold grudges and everything....I like my group a lot most of the time.....but I don't know what is going to happen next session. I am also excited though to do Charlie and the Chocolate Factory, because it will be sooo much easier than trying to find costumes for bugs and seagulls and everything. And my group has a set design class. Oh darn, I just remembered I forgot the mask I made a camp...oh well I will get it on Monday.

"heigh ho, heigh ho, it's off to work we go whistle Heigh ho, heigh ho, heigh ho"

Wed, 20 Jun 2007 22:41:33 GMT

I have to say that I love my job. It has been a lot of fun so far and not much "work". Well it is work, but the kind of fun work where you get to hang out with kids who love you and compliment you all the time and are a lot of fun to be with. Then you get to dance and play games and get free snack and everything. I thought I would hate swimming, but it turns out to be pretty nice, except the water's cold. The best part of it however is that the swim instructor I work with Micah is soo hot....it makes the getting splashed in the face by a million little kids who are learning to swim all worth it. And what's good is that we actually talk, unlike the other counselors and swim instructors.....okay well back to my point. I also got to play one of the evil aunts in James and the Giant Peach today which was a lot of fun, since I was sad that I didn't get to really act....the little girl who played the other aunt is sooo funny, and pretty adorable, as are all the little kids. The one thing that is funny is that there are quite a few people that are a lot taller than me, since the older groups go up to my sister's age. Its really weird though, they look a lot older than my sister, but many aren't at all. We also have to hold kids hands coming from their cars and many people told me how hilarious it looks when I am trying to hold onto a kid who is twice my size....well that is life....and that is work at PAC.

"Please, please, please pass the peas..."

Sat, 16 Jun 2007 02:23:57 GMT

So one week of orientation down, only eight weeks of camp to go!! I have to say that I am pretty much looking forward to being a counselor, except really for the fact that I have no experience dealing with children issues...I never really babysat before, which was probably a bad idea. But beside the fact that every camper has some social problem (its like a soap opera) the summer should be pretty fun....and luckily all my meals have to be dairy or parve (spelling?) because that's what I eat anyway!
Oh and I need some theatre games/camp games so if anyone knows any, please tell me, since two weeks from now I have 40 minutes a day of playing games with the kids...
So here comes a story...so for orientation we were all together in a big group (all the counselors of all the five camps at the JCC)and we were supposed to come up with games to play. We played name tag, which was great since no one knew anyones names (but us PAC people knew each other) and then we played bibbity bibbity bop (which I am not a huge fan of) and then this lady (who's about forty years older than the rest of the counselors) gets up and teaches us this game about manners where you pass a ball in time to this song :

"please, please, please pass the peas
thank you, thank you, thank you very much
You're welcome, welcome, welcome, welcome, welcome
good manners are a very nice touch."

So just picture a bunch of college age people passing around a ball singing that song for five minutes, with an old lady pointing to the person that was supposed to be passed to, it was so hilarious. The looks on people's faces were so great. I don't think the lady realized that this was a summer camp for people older that 3 years old, and even if it was for three year olds, the game has no point! We decided though that we should maybe play the game once, to see how much the kids would laugh.......

So ya that was the most interesting thing that happened this week, well except for an awesome game of mini golf....but ya I don't have to carry around an epipen for a counselor (yay!)....so yes I am so excited!

"ONE MORE DAWN, ONE MORE DAY, ONE DAY MORE!!"

Fri, 25 May 2007 03:08:10 GMT

Its been such a long time since I have written because my life has just been crammed with everything, Les Mis, finishing every single Palmer assignment, visiting colleges, deciding on a college, and of course the million projects that I had to work on....but even with those nights of 1 hour of sleep, it was all worth it for this one day........the last day of school, ever.
I still can't exactly grasp what it will be like, of course it will be sad and stuff, but I can't see myself without all my friends in all my different classes. I mean there will be no more round lunch tables and no crazy ladies who want to see your id even though they know that you come to the MRC every day the exact same period. There will be no more jazz, and no more choir. No more M. Stephan giving us like half the period to talk because he didn't plan for anything else. No more stranf Mr. McCaffrey, who associates me with Beth and Laura, which I don't know whether to admire that or be offended (jk you guys). No more revolutions (or plans for ones that work out by themselves) no more illegally using Liana's locker and being special for having first period free, no more Mr. Decraene.......so many things that I will never get to see again.......yet I am not sad right now, and I don't know if I'll be that sad tomorrow. Its time for a change, and this time I actually think I am ready.

Congradulations everyone, we made it!!

"Tomorrow we'll be far away, tomorrow is the judgement day"

Sun, 22 Apr 2007 06:29:45 GMT

I feel like I have seriously been in an amazing dream for the past few days. Les Mis has been my favorite musical since I randomly listened to the song "Do you hear the people sing?" on some random karaoke website in sixth grade, and I am actually in it. It is my senior year of high school and I get to be a French revolutionary. I am so happy on how the show turned out. Everyone is amazing, and nice, which is a good contrast to the people that are usually in the shows at the high school...It seems like everything is just too perfect, and I don't want it to end.....
Theatre is my life, and in only a few short days I will be without it once again. I don't know if I will be able to stand it, knowing that there is so little that I can do...in college I won't get to be in amazing productions like Les Mis (well actually I don't know if it is exactly true) but it is a completely different experience. When Carney said that Les Mis is what started his love for theatre, I wanted to cry, because I think that is the same for me....if Les Mis can change one life, theatrecan change the world....Do You Hear the People Sing??!!!??!!!!!!!!

"I came to New York on a dream, I knew it would take me a while..."

Tue, 20 Mar 2007 01:53:38 GMT

So.....I got into NYU!!! But here's the thing...I didn't get an acceptance letter. I got a letter that says, "we'll make final decisions for scholarships and admissions in the next few weeks, so if you're a national merit finalist send us stuff, but otherwise, you don't need to send anything" which is pretty ambiguous, since the last sentence says "I hope to see you as a blah blah blah scholar or something next year." Tres confusing, non? especially since I am not a national merit finalist, or semifinalist or anything having to do with it at all...but then I also get an invitation like thing and it says "you're invited to the College of Arts and Sciences reception at NYU for admitted students of 2011!!" So here's what I understand, they are telling me that I am in, but they have to wait to make the decisions and stuff for scholarships and everything, so I will hopefully get the true acceptance letter soon..........I will not be so far away from everything, I will be in the NYC!!! (I do like Tulane, however, since I went to a reception yesterday and it was very informative and made me like the school even more (I mean you can get a BFA, which usually only comes with conservatory training, and its extremely easy to double and triple major, which is the greatest!!)